On these hard days, better keep some bright thoughts

[14:01, 03/8/2017] +595 972 902073: For me you will always remain the Ly that I said goodbye at the Düsseldorf airport and looked after she turned around and passed the gates.
I conserve every image that I had about you since you left and set myself on stand by.                      
[14:02, 03/8/2017] +595 972 902073: I know that distance is a killer, but nothing changed in me or my perception.

[14:04, 03/8/2017] +595 972 902073: If you remember, that I declared myself once as a "lifelong supporter" you can be sure that it will remain. No matter if you asked all these strange questions about wedding, friendship, etc.                      
[14:05, 03/8/2017] +595 972 902073: And of course I won't change any behavior...Did you really think that?
⛄🏀🐀

I hope that we will meet each other again in life

And that's how we ended our love story.

• Does Duy still want to make you together with his friends?
• I know how you are at bar. You just dance with everyone. I know how they go ahead to you, then follow you - But I came to you, I came directly to you and you said "Go dance with those boy!
• I know how a man look a woman he loves - Because there are many men looked at you like that? Did Claudio look at you that way?
• You are loud, complicated, clumsy and stubborn. But that's why I love you - You aggressive, loud, moody German
• You are very demanding, Ly. You asked me to take actions. And I like that
• Do you wanna have something to drink? - Why? What? What do you want to do with that? - Relax, I just wanna be nice
• Its amazing how she can hit everything - I heard that!!!!!!!
• You are too strict on yourself, Ly
• I love you. Today was so good. I wanna wake up with you, do things with you, talk to you, go to bed with you and wake up again with you and do the same everyday. Everything is perfect now. There are so many places I wanna go with you, many things I wanna eat with you, but we do not have time.
• You laugh like an uncle and snore like a man
• You always react, and come back.
• I thought you might come to me, so I opened my eyes twice to check. Then the only time I thought it was ok, you came and destroyed my peaceful time
• YOU! YOU!
• Phil, I have an idea, do you wanna hear? - NO - I say it anyway!!!
• I am a diamond in my village
• Did I cross the line, did I talk too much? - Nobody can tell you to stop talking. I can't do that, so nobody is allowed. You can say whatever you think
• Is there anybody in the family has his head size? - No, he must have that from his dad (the way he looked at me is exactly the same the way his dad looked at his mother)
• I though you would slap me, or cry.... - I appreciated that you were honest to me

I am in love

Deeply deeply in love with Philipp.
Every small talks we had. Every night we spent together. Every meals, every touch.
It got deep in my skin, in my heart... all the marks he left.
"Do not forget me. Do not forget all the feelings you have with me. The moments we are together. The time we spend with each other."
And I cried. This time was different.
And he kissed the tears away.
Maybe it is better this way.

Tao Te Ching

When people see some things as beautiful,
other things become ugly.
When people see some things as good,
other things become bad.

Being and non-being create each other.
Difficult and easy support each other.
Long and short define each other.
High and low depend on each other.
Before and after follow each other.

Therefore the Master
acts without doing anything
and teaches without saying anything.
Things arise and she lets them come;
things disappear and she lets them go.
She has but doesn’t possess,
acts but doesn’t expect.
When her work is done, she forgets it.
That is why it lasts forever.

Colors blind the eye.
Sounds deafen the ear.
Flavors numb the taste.
Thoughts weaken the mind.
Desires wither the heart.

The Master observes the world
but trusts his inner vision.
He allows things to come and go.
His heart is open as the sky.

Stop thinking, and end your problems.
What difference between yes and no?
What difference between success and failure?
Must you value what others value,
avoid what others avoid?
How ridiculous!
Other people are excited,
as though they were at a parade.
I alone don’t care,
I alone am expressionless,
like an infant before it can smile.
Other people have what they need;
I alone possess nothing.
I alone drift about,
like someone without a home.
I am like an idiot, my mind is so empty.
Other people are bright;
I alone am dark.
Other people are sharper;
I alone am dull.
Other people have a purpose;
I alone don’t know.
I drift like a wave on the ocean,
I blow as aimless as the wind.
I am different from ordinary people.
I drink from the Great Mother’s breasts.

Know the male,
yet keep to the female:
receive the world in your arms.
If you receive the world,
the Tao will never leave you
and you will be like a little child.
Know the white,
yet keep to the black:
be a pattern for the world.
If you are a pattern for the world,
the Tao will be strong inside you
and there will be nothing you can’t do.
Know the personal,
yet keep to the impersonal:
accept the world as it is.
If you accept the world,
the Tao will be luminous inside you
and you will return to your primal self.
The world is formed from the void,
like utensils from a block of wood.
The Master knows the utensils,
yet keeps to the the block:
thus she can use all things.

2016.12.23

There are 3 best decisions I have made in life.

Quit Uni.

Did not come back to Vietnam.

Married your aunt.

=> Awwww... my uncle in law is a keeper!

Chính mình là cây ngô đồng, Phượng hoàng mới đến đậu. Chính mình là biển lớn, trăm sông mới hội tụ...

"Một người chân chính mạnh mẽ, sẽ không quá quan tâm đến chuyện làm vui lòng đẹp ý người khác, điều quan trọng nhất là bạn phải nâng cao nội lực của chính mình. Khi bạn đã rèn luyện tốt rồi, tự khắc sẽ có người đến gần gũi với bạn. Chính mình là cây ngô đồng, Phượng hoàng mới đến đậu. Chính mình là biển lớn, trăm sông mới hội tụ. Như hoa có hương, ong bướm sẽ tụ hội. Khi bạn đến được tầng bậc nhất định, bạn sẽ có được những mối quan hệ xã hội tương ứng, mà không phải là ngược lại."

Tình ái

Quyến luyến và lệ thuộc không phải là tình yêu

Khi ta cần một người khác để sống còn, thì ta là ký sinh trùng sống nhờ vào người ấy. Không có chọn lựa cũng chẳng có tự do trong mối quan hệ ấy; đó là một nhu cầu hơn là tình yêu, một chọn lựa tự do. Ai cũng muốn được người khác quan tâm chăm sóc, nhưng nếu để cho khát vọng ấy chế ngự và định hình lối sống thì ta đã lệ thuộc vào chúng và bị “rối loạn nhân cách tuỳ thuộc thụ động” (passive dependent personality disorder). Lúc ấy, ta giống như kẻ đói ăn, vồ chụp lấy bất cứ miếng ăn nào trong tầm tay, lòng cơ hồ trống rỗng như một cái hố không đáy kêu van người khác lấp đầy, song chẳng bao giờ lấp đầy được vì ta luôn cảm thấy thiếu; ta không chịu nổi sự côn đơn và thay đổi như chong chóng.

Người lệ thuộc và thụ động chỉ bận tâm tìm kiếm những gì kẻ khác làm cho mình thay vì cố gắng làm những gì có thể làm. Khi không được thoả mãn, không được vui, họ đổ lỗi cho kẻ khác nên bất mãn triền miên. Nhân cách của người lệ thuộc thụ động là “nhân cách của kẻ nghiện”, nghiện kẻ khác đến độ lao thẳng vào họ và ngấu nghiến; không được thì tìm đến với rượu và ma tuý như một cách để bù trừ. Tình trạng lệ thuộc và thụ động này thường do tuổi thơ thiếu vắng tình yêu và lớn lên trong tâm trạng bất an và lo lắng.

BFF's chat

mấy cái công thức ấ

ai mà thik cho đc

chệp

ừ

phải gà đâu

m thấy boring thấy mịe

tán mấy e non xanh còn đc

nghĩ cô là ai mà tán kiểu hời hợt ấy

chệp

The truth

It was hard to tell the truth, to admit something you did not like that person to know about.
Once you said it, you were free.
---

"The more I drink, the more I feel sober"
"Maybe you are not in the mood of getting drunk. It works that way too"

---

"The wind in the willow played
Love's sweet melody
But all of those vows we made
Were never to be
Tho' we're apart, you're part of me still
For you were my thrill on blueberry hill"
---

"Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time."

Phá chấp

...Trên trời có đám mây xanh
Có con ngựa bạch chạy quanh gầm í trời
Đôi ta  muốn lấy nhau chơi
Nhưng cái duyên chưa định thì trời chưa xe
Những đôi bến nước bờ tre
nhưng cái duyên đã định, trời xe cứ  thành ...
Đứng ở đằng xa ...yêu nhau đứng ở đằng xa,
con mắt liếc lại bằng ba đứng gần. 

Said the fox

Nothing is perfect," sighed the fox.
But he came back to his idea.
"My life's very monotonous," he said. "I hunt chickens; men hunt me.
All chickens are just alike, and all the men are just alike.
And in consequence, I am a little bored.
- The little prince-

Yeah, women are dreamers

"The home, the village, the city and the whole civilization are because of the woman, because she was free from hunting and she had different values of the heart and of the mind – she was more aesthetic, more graceful, more earthly, not at all interested in hell and heaven and God and the devil and all that crap! No woman has written a single religious scripture. No woman has been a philosopher thinking about abstract, faraway things.

Woman's consciousness is interested only in the intimate surroundings – she would like a beautiful house, she would like a beautiful garden. She wants to create a small world of her own – cozy, comfortable. She imparts a certain quality to a dead house and it becomes a living home. It is a magical transformation."

2015.04.01

"By the river Piedra I sat down and wept. There is a legend that everything that falls into the waters of this river—leaves, insects, the feathers of birds—is transformed into the rocks that make the riverbed. If only I could tear out my heart and hurl it into the current, then my pain and longing would be over, and I could finally forget. By the river Piedra I sat down and wept. The winter air chills the tears on my cheeks, and my tears fall into the cold waters that course past me. Somewhere, this river joins another, then another, until far from my heart and sight all of them merge with the sea. May my tears run just as far, that my love might never know that one day I cried for him."

2014.10.09

“Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence.”
― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince

Shit happens. Duh!

I made a mistake.
I take the responsibility.
Done with those shit.


I have someone that I love him so much.

Especially when something likes this happens. It is more than great to have someone can make you smile, and feel well, from your heart.

The simple natural bright light coming from inside warms up your body and your mind.
Things will be hard, the way will be long.
And I will be just alright.


Love is not a ding-la-ding moment.
It's a growing tree.
The resonable amount of  love and air and water and earth can grow a tree.
Our tree is young, keeps growing bigger and stronger....
The moment when I heard him talked via phone: "Honey, it's alright.
I felt totally "ALRIGHT".

It's not the end of the world.
It's an experience for me.
So, I am ready for the storm.

The reason

I always look at him carefullly, seems like I picture him in my mind, with all the possible details my limited brain can copy.
The winkles, the dots, the skin color, the lip shape. The way he blinks his eyes, the taste of his tounge, the way light blooming out when he smiles. The shape of his nails. Color of forehead hair, how curly the hair behind....
Then I can film the whole picture in my mind anytime I want.
And he would appear like he is really here.
"Why do you always look at me like that?"
"Cause I love details. I love to memorize everything about you"
And it helps me.
To prove to myself that he is real.
Our love is here.
The pressure of his body against me is real.
When he hugs me.
When I hug him.
When we kiss.
All is real.

Heart-ache

The wound he makes.
When will it be healed?
Or the pain is just getting bigger... with the dropping tears running out of heart.
Can I live like this forever?
I doubt it.

My love's poem

"Ly ơi ly ơi don't be sad
Life with Mihai is not so bad
If you think that we meet less
Next week we will try our best
Daily lunch just like last year
Evenings can be film or beer"

-Mihai Constantinescu-


;) =)) :x

My man

2012.10.11

"Ly, I think that I am falling in love with you"
*blush*blush*blush*