On these hard days, better keep some bright thoughts

[14:01, 03/8/2017] +595 972 902073: For me you will always remain the Ly that I said goodbye at the Düsseldorf airport and looked after she turned around and passed the gates.
I conserve every image that I had about you since you left and set myself on stand by.                      
[14:02, 03/8/2017] +595 972 902073: I know that distance is a killer, but nothing changed in me or my perception.

[14:04, 03/8/2017] +595 972 902073: If you remember, that I declared myself once as a "lifelong supporter" you can be sure that it will remain. No matter if you asked all these strange questions about wedding, friendship, etc.                      
[14:05, 03/8/2017] +595 972 902073: And of course I won't change any behavior...Did you really think that?
⛄🏀🐀

My first Lunar New Year far far away

First new year away from home.
Got drunk by beers, wine, vodka, blah blah blah...
Was kissed by a classmate, then both said "let's skip it, we are having someone already"
Saw the man I like kissed another girl as he saw me kissed another guy.
Got mad, texted drunk saying that you did not want him anymore.
He calmed you down at 4AM, saying that it was better to talk soberly.

1st day of the year, had a group work done.
Talked to the man about what happened.
Got an apology from him.
Laying on his body.
Then went for another party.
Danced like crazy in a pub.

Received many emails.
Did another group work.

Thinking about life.
How it was, how it is and how it should be.

Being loved.
Having to deal with one man you dated when you were mad at the one you like.
Alright Ly, your 30s is no different than your 20s.

2015.11.23

“Khoảng thời gian này, đối với tôi mà nói là 1 cơ hội tốt để thay đổi và học hỏi. Bên trong tôi có thể vẫn còn nước đục, vẫn còn bùn cát. Nhưng chẳng phải 1 ly nước đục nếu được giữ nguyên và không lay chuyển, thì từ từ cặn bã sẽ dần lắng đọng xuống đáy khiến nước trở nên trong suốt sao? Vậy nên tôi nghĩ chỉ cần giữ cho tâm được bình thản an yên, mọi thứ theo thời gian sẽ dần sáng tỏ và thông suốt thôi.”
Madame Lee

Sweet Mikey

Michael

    over is hard, but it must be

----

    life eh?

    kinda shitty n fun

Ly

    Yeah, we are here to enjoy life

Michael

    just do what u do

Ly

    So i think the best way for me, is finding someone with mutual willing

Michael

    but make sure u learn along the way

Ly

    And sharing good n bad moments with him

Michael

    woman, ur missing the point

    just do ur own thing n see what happens

     forget "relationships"

     it'll come if it will

Ly

    I dont have one, and actually im not finding

    Just tired

Michael

    well, every individual has to decide that

    sorry, but too many girls, especially viet girls define their existance through bf

   just do ur thing

    it'll work out

     i only say that cos ur not old fat n ugly

    those ppl r fucked

Ly

   Those ppl? :)))

Michael

    get serious girl

     ur not in a bad spot

     plenty of guys would like u

   

Ly

     I know. Im not stupid, just too emotional

     I should start doing gym

     I can swim 400 meters

Michael

     well, sucks to be female

     wow

Ly

     As a result of my swimming class

     I told you bf

Michael

     does it make u feel bad that i can swim 2km

     ?

   

Ly

     Yeah! Go to hell, Mike!

Michael

  400m is damn good

  for a non australian

   

Yeah, women are dreamers

"The home, the village, the city and the whole civilization are because of the woman, because she was free from hunting and she had different values of the heart and of the mind – she was more aesthetic, more graceful, more earthly, not at all interested in hell and heaven and God and the devil and all that crap! No woman has written a single religious scripture. No woman has been a philosopher thinking about abstract, faraway things.

Woman's consciousness is interested only in the intimate surroundings – she would like a beautiful house, she would like a beautiful garden. She wants to create a small world of her own – cozy, comfortable. She imparts a certain quality to a dead house and it becomes a living home. It is a magical transformation."

Describe yourself

How would you describe yourself?
I am an angry, envious and sensitive person.

Why do you feel like that? Why do you think about yourself as a person like that?
Because I have to accept myself, the real me. And I have to deal with my anger.
The anger destroys all the good moment of my life.
And make me nervous.
By accepting it, I can face it, solve it, and move on.

Mất

Thế là mất bạn.
Mất thật.
Lòng tin mất.
Tình cảm cũng vì thế mà mất theo.
Cuộc đời cũng thật là hài.
Đúng như Nâu bảo, nguời ta dễ mất bạn, một là vì tình, hai là vì tiền.

The reason

I always look at him carefullly, seems like I picture him in my mind, with all the possible details my limited brain can copy.
The winkles, the dots, the skin color, the lip shape. The way he blinks his eyes, the taste of his tounge, the way light blooming out when he smiles. The shape of his nails. Color of forehead hair, how curly the hair behind....
Then I can film the whole picture in my mind anytime I want.
And he would appear like he is really here.
"Why do you always look at me like that?"
"Cause I love details. I love to memorize everything about you"
And it helps me.
To prove to myself that he is real.
Our love is here.
The pressure of his body against me is real.
When he hugs me.
When I hug him.
When we kiss.
All is real.

2012.05.03

Tạ Hiện, this windy afternoon...

Keep telling myself "he is definitely wrong guy for me" doesn't work.
He just comes any times unpredictably.
He shows up, just sitting and talking to me.
So easy and comfortable to be his company.
He makes me smile, feeling happy... and be my real self...
[Maybe just being myself is enough]
...


"See you tomorrow"
...
He is just not that into me, I have to fully be aware of that.
I must be serious about my future...

2012.03.25

We bought 9 tickets of lottery.
and talked about how to use the money....
"I'll buy you flowers... and some shoes... and also buy the new race bike..."
"should I buy Vietnam and change to R's land"
=))))))))))))
Dogs.
Cats.
Football.
Love.
Movies.
.
.
.
Be myself is really good \:D/

Tối thứ 6 đầu tiên của tháng 3

Too kind to be true.

Khóa cửa.
Công an.
...
"Em lên có được không?"
...

Red Harem.
4 bottles.
Đèn nhấp nháy tự điều chỉnh.
Hạnh phúc.
"Till the sunlight"
Nhảy múa minh họa tập thể.
2 ??ked men....
"How  to take back the innocent mind?"
Pa ra pa ra ....
"Vẫn có ông đi lên, khiếp thật"

Đen và Trắng
Hát hò trong bóng tối.

Ghế cứng và ghế mềm.
Bản đồ đắp mặt.

Sáng... Hà Nội mưa mưa mưa mưa mưa mưa mưa..................
Nhất định sẽ nhớ những tháng ngày như vậy lắm lắm....

My weekends, my friend's eyes, her inside tears, mine, his, him....

The music was too bad...
Just booom and basssss...
Like a circus.... the creepy one...

What are my colors?

"Then you shall judge yourself," the king answered. "that is the most difficult thing of all. It is much more difficult to judge oneself than to judge others. If you succeed in judging yourself rightly, then you are indeed a man of true wisdom.
-Little prince-