I am in love

Deeply deeply in love with Philipp.
Every small talks we had. Every night we spent together. Every meals, every touch.
It got deep in my skin, in my heart... all the marks he left.
"Do not forget me. Do not forget all the feelings you have with me. The moments we are together. The time we spend with each other."
And I cried. This time was different.
And he kissed the tears away.
Maybe it is better this way.

My first Lunar New Year far far away

First new year away from home.
Got drunk by beers, wine, vodka, blah blah blah...
Was kissed by a classmate, then both said "let's skip it, we are having someone already"
Saw the man I like kissed another girl as he saw me kissed another guy.
Got mad, texted drunk saying that you did not want him anymore.
He calmed you down at 4AM, saying that it was better to talk soberly.

1st day of the year, had a group work done.
Talked to the man about what happened.
Got an apology from him.
Laying on his body.
Then went for another party.
Danced like crazy in a pub.

Received many emails.
Did another group work.

Thinking about life.
How it was, how it is and how it should be.

Being loved.
Having to deal with one man you dated when you were mad at the one you like.
Alright Ly, your 30s is no different than your 20s.

2015.04.03

Stop thinking, and end your problems.
What difference between yes and no?
What difference between success and failure?
Must you value what others value,
avoid what others avoid?
How ridiculous!



Other people have what they need;
I alone possess nothing.
I alone drift about,
like someone without a home.

I am like an idiot, my mind is so empty.
Other people are bright;
I alone am dark.

Other people are sharper;
I alone am dull.
Other people have a purpose;
I alone don’t know.

I drift like a wave on the ocean,

I blow as aimless as the wind....